feeling nostalgic

towards the times when i wasn't too busy to notice my real problems. so i'm going to go watch a film that makes me notice. i used to do that a lot when i was younger and be really into music and movies that made me feel bad like i should. like watching thumbsucker or listening to somber indie rock. you know what i'm talking about. so i'm going to go do that now, because i have reason. but i will just say that i am a part of a living soap opera.