i had a feeling this was present but didn't do its job

Daily Planetary Overview Today, Mercury conjunct Mars will bring a quick mind and the ability to make your point with impressive clarity. Practicality and the ability to realize your plans will allow you to get things done well. Give constructive criticism. Your Horoscope - Today, January 27, 2009 It might take you an extra few minutes to get out of bed today, Dylan, but when you do, it will be worth it. You will find that the more honest you have been with people, the more payoffs you will see today. Dependability and trustworthiness are key issues that you might find yourself focusing on. Act strong and proud with regard to who you are, and the rewards will come. Bring a certain amount of tenderness to all your actions today.

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i can't be inspired alone. my creativity has its limits because in the dull moments of boredom when no ones there, what am i doing? i'm never doing anything not assigned. i don't have spontaneity alone.
if anyone, you ever questioned my sincerity in trying to figure things out, if you ever thought that i was trying to show someone something, why i share, its because i can't do that stuff alone. or prove it to myself alone. i dont need commentary, but to have something hanging in the air out of my stomach.
back to everything else: i keep waiting to go somewhere else to make myself feel more comfortable but really i'm waiting for someone. i need an other. not just one, a few, back to where i thought i'd be when i started everything.
this is a soft individual realization which is usually not what happens, usually what happens is a passionate rage and squeeze words in where they sit next to each other screaming and purple but this only is complete to i, because you, will think this is about you. its about no one but i, and eyes.

now i know what it feels like to be a terrible person.

chronic headaches.

economic disaster survival plan 1.0

build a treehouse in the redwoods with a system of solar powered water purification and knowledge of foraging through california woodlands for nuts berries etc. i would have to wean myself off of animal protein and multivitamins so i would see if soy could grow in northern ca. bring instruments because it will sound something like pet sounds and harvest, not together, but for the high and flat times respectivley. there will have to be a tambourine repair kit that will be in our treehouse building toolbox. i'll import some tea plants before we leave so we'll always have some assam. your pets can come but they'll assimilate easily because they're barely domesticated anyway. i think some electricity will be neccessary and since our treehouse will be closer to the surface of sunlight than the ground, we'll install a solar panel which will provide little vents of heat underneath the floorboards and a lighted ground pathway at night. what we'll do during the day is mostly foraging, which will be healthy for our bodies because exercise and daily work will go hand in hand. this is only version 1.0 so the logistics will come later.

i think

i
hate
seattle.

HIRE me!

this is what i'm super motivated to do in 2009 (after january):

-more musical graphic design...need any sort of artwork for musical promotion let me know! or really anything fun, i just want to "build my portfolio" as oppose to trying to make money and doing boring jobs. am i right am i right

-cupcake catering and general baking...i have the supplies and a super roster of flavors so if you have any events that need sweets let me know too!



seriously, keep me in mind!