seperation

the separation between the natural human experience and what we know today as modern society has been widely growing since the beginning of recorded history, and in the "western world" we've been falling into it only to catch illuminated glimpses of either side: the possibilities modern global growth holds, or how great it was back in the good old days of barbaric freedom.

this gap is not a balance between the two, but rather a falling away from the true potentials each condition holds. its not anti-civilization against social structure in our real conscience: we all want the conveniences and short cuts of modern living but i think even more most of us want fulfillment, and i think fulfillment of life lies somewhere above that gap we're nuzzling deeper into every minute, stable and clear. some "technologies" we've taken too far and the others we ha vent taken far enough. a prime example is modern medicine: shouldn't its motive be to protect the lives of those who have so much more to live out? the young and ambitious that are suffering from diseases and disabilities that hamper their individual growth, and they get an answer from their doctor that stomps on all hope of normal survival; when grandpa at 84 is down the hall in the cancer ward getting radiation treatment for a cancer he's had for years and is ready to leave his body? what a waste of doctors, supplies, medicines, energy! we've been separated from the nature of death, convinced that with medicine we can be invincible and immortal. but why would anyone want to be? why are we so scared of leaving? in all honesty, i've found in my experiences that those who are living unfulfilling and unsatisfying lives are the ones that are truly afraid of dying.

in our unconsciously confused state of mind, we redefined what it is to be normal - to go against many of our instincts, to dull our impulses and stifle our creativity. when in fact what is normal is intuition, it is to do whats best for ourselves and in that pursuit do whats best for others. for instance, why in america is there so much resistance against eating healthily? why is dieting a common concept, why was it even created at all? a human beings natural, normal instinct is to "exercise" and "eat right". healthy living has become such a burden because we're continuously separated from the origins of our need to eat and run. its to replace something we tried to replace before when nothing of our natural human state needed replacing at all...